I always thought I jinxed myself by becoming happy, in reality I don't jinx myself because I'm happy. I jinx myself because I think too hard and too negatively on life.
Recently i a had a revelation on my negativity and how often I hold grudges against others, and how I sometimes blame others for things that aren't their fault.
I rather not feel upset and angry at anyone... people prove themselves to either do what they should for you... or decide not to.
people decide to either let you down , or build you up.}
they decide to stand up for you or sit down and stare
Why be angry at anyone? We can only be angry at the things we could have controlled and the things we have power over. That ONE and only thing is ourselves. i believe we can write our own destiny but the book is already laid out. Be aware of yourself and be responsible for your actions. everything else anyone else does wont really matter. It'll be all right.
kind of a wooh-sahh moment.
haden't blogged in a MEAN while and decided to come back with a zen additude.
Ill be bitching again in a few.
=P
-trinuhh.
i missed wRiting!
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Saturday, November 7, 2009
the people. P1
I did a facebook thing...
and my most common word used was; PEOPLE
People are... something else.
People who are close to me often try to be in separate, defined categories , that remove them from the "people" section and include them somewhere more-- Exclusive.
places like
best friend
boy friend
asscoiates
"bestiesss"
whatever.
In this new " book " I have .
EVERYONE is "people."
I wont go and penetrate the levels of everyones fakeness, or define everyone's useless mindless consumption of drama.. but i will say this;;
JUST because you can read a bunch of pages of blogs on facebook.
or you see me in the hallway
or because you've seen my tweets
or known me for a few years
you do NOT know me.
you are just people until I say so.
Cuz lately everyone has been redefining themselves.
the category you think you can put yourself in isn't where you stand because
SOMETIMEISH-ness is beyond excessive.
[If i'm dramatic. then dont make a scene when your blowing mine. If I'm too mello ,, please be dramatic with your getting on your knees to blow mine.. ]
**if your offended your probably guilty.
Over time you realize that a BUNCH of friends ain't shit to survive in life
I'm ONLY seventeen, people realize this shit in their thirties.
I'm NOT in need for a shit load of friends that will talk about my curly hair tommorow.
I dont need a boyfriend that will love me one day and smut me out the next.
I just need me.
i have it.
If your here than be here and dont be offended.
If you dont feel that you give a shit about me
please.
do
me
the
KIND
SWEET
DIPLOMATIC
favor
and leave.
and my most common word used was; PEOPLE
People are... something else.
People who are close to me often try to be in separate, defined categories , that remove them from the "people" section and include them somewhere more-- Exclusive.
places like
best friend
boy friend
asscoiates
"bestiesss"
whatever.
In this new " book " I have .
EVERYONE is "people."
I wont go and penetrate the levels of everyones fakeness, or define everyone's useless mindless consumption of drama.. but i will say this;;
JUST because you can read a bunch of pages of blogs on facebook.
or you see me in the hallway
or because you've seen my tweets
or known me for a few years
you do NOT know me.
you are just people until I say so.
Cuz lately everyone has been redefining themselves.
the category you think you can put yourself in isn't where you stand because
SOMETIMEISH-ness is beyond excessive.
[If i'm dramatic. then dont make a scene when your blowing mine. If I'm too mello ,, please be dramatic with your getting on your knees to blow mine.. ]
**if your offended your probably guilty.
Over time you realize that a BUNCH of friends ain't shit to survive in life
I'm ONLY seventeen, people realize this shit in their thirties.
I'm NOT in need for a shit load of friends that will talk about my curly hair tommorow.
I dont need a boyfriend that will love me one day and smut me out the next.
I just need me.
i have it.
If your here than be here and dont be offended.
If you dont feel that you give a shit about me
please.
do
me
the
KIND
SWEET
DIPLOMATIC
favor
and leave.
Saturday, October 10, 2009
credit. all we know.
#deepdowninside crying is all i do.
#deepdowninside i know he doesnt give a fuck
#deepdowninside i know i shouldn't either
#deepdowninside hes my bad habit that im going cold turkey
#deepdowninside idc who judges me right now.
#deepdowninside wants to be forgiven bygod.
#deepdowninside shes ffeeling maxwell song "bad habits"
#deepdowninside shes speechless but still talks.
#deepdowninside i just want to k just LIVE
#deepdowninside i just want to have my memory wiped CLEAN of emotions.
#deepdowninside i fucking hate and love maxwell and thinks shes too fucking emotional
#deepdowninside catherina keyboard is OD.
#deepdowninside wishes .. just wishes.
#deepdowninside i know people think negatively instead of taking things for what they are
#deepdowninside your so hateful sometimes throwing punches @ life.
- too emotional.
-too deep
you can blow it
haven't blogged in aminute. needed to let it out a little.
#deepdowninside i know he doesnt give a fuck
#deepdowninside i know i shouldn't either
#deepdowninside hes my bad habit that im going cold turkey
#deepdowninside idc who judges me right now.
#deepdowninside wants to be forgiven bygod.
#deepdowninside shes ffeeling maxwell song "bad habits"
#deepdowninside shes speechless but still talks.
#deepdowninside i just want to k just LIVE
#deepdowninside i just want to have my memory wiped CLEAN of emotions.
#deepdowninside i fucking hate and love maxwell and thinks shes too fucking emotional
#deepdowninside catherina keyboard is OD.
#deepdowninside wishes .. just wishes.
#deepdowninside i know people think negatively instead of taking things for what they are
#deepdowninside your so hateful sometimes throwing punches @ life.
- too emotional.
-too deep
you can blow it
haven't blogged in aminute. needed to let it out a little.
Saturday, September 12, 2009
well it's nice to meet you sir....
disclaimer;
"your not a judge but if your gonna judge me..." leave me a comment.
=]
location; long island..
It's that feeling in your stomach when you want it so bad..
-so you push and you push and p u s h and fight so hard with your eyes closed.... open them and see that your fighting yourself ... or fighting someone who isn't fighting with you. &&& you know that your fighting for something you want, but you know what you want isn't going to happen because it ISN'T meant to be.... The best part is when you realize it isn't anyone's fault. time inhabits change. Sometimes the change is good for personal growth.... and not growth for anything else.
What you try to keep fresh doesn't always stay that way....somethings no matter what you do just go away..and stay away. & no matter what after-affect thought you may have to reconcile most likely means nothing.. because it's GONE.
-- don't be mistaken
HAPPINESS isn't gone. Just that one possible cause of it is. You can't push anything that's trying to fall the opposite direction. It's a "circle I mean cycle.."
but nothing should ever be seen as a waste of time. any moment you've spent should be a moment you should cherish an experience to love... and a moment to remember.
personal ode. 14 days.
without gettinng to speccific
on what i lost before i even really gained it
i wish i knew what it looked like.
who it looked like.
"your not a judge but if your gonna judge me..." leave me a comment.
=]
location; long island..
It's that feeling in your stomach when you want it so bad..
-so you push and you push and p u s h and fight so hard with your eyes closed.... open them and see that your fighting yourself ... or fighting someone who isn't fighting with you. &&& you know that your fighting for something you want, but you know what you want isn't going to happen because it ISN'T meant to be.... The best part is when you realize it isn't anyone's fault. time inhabits change. Sometimes the change is good for personal growth.... and not growth for anything else.
What you try to keep fresh doesn't always stay that way....somethings no matter what you do just go away..and stay away. & no matter what after-affect thought you may have to reconcile most likely means nothing.. because it's GONE.
-- don't be mistaken
HAPPINESS isn't gone. Just that one possible cause of it is. You can't push anything that's trying to fall the opposite direction. It's a "circle I mean cycle.."
but nothing should ever be seen as a waste of time. any moment you've spent should be a moment you should cherish an experience to love... and a moment to remember.
personal ode. 14 days.
without gettinng to speccific
on what i lost before i even really gained it
i wish i knew what it looked like.
who it looked like.
Sunday, September 6, 2009
conntentment eliiminates comparison [ abt nothing ]
** yawn- the past few days..
nothing goin on physically outside really.
--except or all these damn passa passa and compa parties...
everyone is going to be a shatta tommorow.
hadda write -- cuz it needs to be done but there really is nothin to say.
GUESS YOU TOOK A MINUTE OUT OF YOUR LIFE TO READ SOETHIN THAT WAS ABOUT NOTHIN.....
^^^that wasn't supposed to be in caps, but now i'm to lazy to fix it
In OTHER news.
i learned something new yesterday..
-- when yu make someone your life.. when you remove them .. there isnt much left.
--AHHh senor yearrrrrr. lets hope noonne is repeating it!
-- ahh senior prom.
- ahh sing.
- spring musical.
three cheers for moving on and up
hip hip -.-
"you'll never see a rainbow without the rain".
[ imported.]
nothing goin on physically outside really.
--except or all these damn passa passa and compa parties...
everyone is going to be a shatta tommorow.
hadda write -- cuz it needs to be done but there really is nothin to say.
GUESS YOU TOOK A MINUTE OUT OF YOUR LIFE TO READ SOETHIN THAT WAS ABOUT NOTHIN.....
^^^that wasn't supposed to be in caps, but now i'm to lazy to fix it
In OTHER news.
i learned something new yesterday..
-- when yu make someone your life.. when you remove them .. there isnt much left.
--AHHh senor yearrrrrr. lets hope noonne is repeating it!
-- ahh senior prom.
- ahh sing.
- spring musical.
three cheers for moving on and up
hip hip -.-
"you'll never see a rainbow without the rain".
[ imported.]
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
DAMN, she goes IN. stage one - rant.
so what did you think i would say...
no you can't run away..
no you can't run away..
you wouldnt!
...
we were finished long before,
we could even see the start why don;t you
STAND up ,
be a man about it..
FIGHT with you bare hands about it now..
i never wanted to say this...
you never wanted to stay.
Well did you?
i put my faith in you
SO much faith and then you.
just threw it away...
-- enough of paramore...
Last night was a night to always remember but try hardest to forget.
AH
but im sure it hurts you more than it hurts me.
-_-
sigh sigh
womp womp.
but the only words that comfort me when I think that I wasted alot.
is "never regret what you do for love"
and i wont.
&& no matter what a person says or does.. it just wont ever be enough...
personal note;;
no matter how far i go..
no matter how long it takes
noone or nothing can change
forever yours here i stand
hahaha. THE IRONY!
defining FACT.
the day ihave no emotion when yur name is mentioned weill be the happiest day of my life.
fact number 2
last blog.
ake your sigh of relief.
fact 3
owwww
-- trinuhhh.
[ these blogs are imported for TRINUHSAYS @ blogspot.com ]
no you can't run away..
no you can't run away..
you wouldnt!
...
we were finished long before,
we could even see the start why don;t you
STAND up ,
be a man about it..
FIGHT with you bare hands about it now..
i never wanted to say this...
you never wanted to stay.
Well did you?
i put my faith in you
SO much faith and then you.
just threw it away...
-- enough of paramore...
Last night was a night to always remember but try hardest to forget.
AH
but im sure it hurts you more than it hurts me.
-_-
sigh sigh
womp womp.
but the only words that comfort me when I think that I wasted alot.
is "never regret what you do for love"
and i wont.
&& no matter what a person says or does.. it just wont ever be enough...
personal note;;
no matter how far i go..
no matter how long it takes
noone or nothing can change
forever yours here i stand
hahaha. THE IRONY!
defining FACT.
the day ihave no emotion when yur name is mentioned weill be the happiest day of my life.
fact number 2
last blog.
ake your sigh of relief.
fact 3
owwww
-- trinuhhh.
[ these blogs are imported for TRINUHSAYS @ blogspot.com ]
Monday, August 31, 2009
this time were not giving up...lets make it last forever
life is such a crazy thing. you win a little and you lose a lot.
you give a lot and its all for no reason
cuz it all can dissapear withing half a minute.
And you realize how thin the line is between love and hate
It doesnt hurt to bad till you realize it hurts you way more than it hurts them..
or till you realize HOW LONG A person wanted something before they actually saID IT...
OR WHEN TEARS DON'T MEAN anything . ..
YESTERDAY was the most draining horribe day i've ever had.. minus the facebook party on sasha's page other than that.. W.e
the hardest thing from this pointto do is move on.. cuz that a year and some shit..wasted for it to all end up one way. JUST leaving me wishing that noone WAS RIGHT.
-- i dont give a shit if im going hard.. or over emotioal.. I
'll be done with my bullsit in about a week.
If your a FRIEND. gimme time && if you cant handle it DIP
I dont think love is something i even know how to do at this point.
well.. moving onn.
but when yu love someone , you just dont treat them bad....
oh how i feel so sad , now that i wanna leave
* GET THE FUCK OUTTAA HEREE WITH THAT SHIT.
--trinuhh.
you give a lot and its all for no reason
cuz it all can dissapear withing half a minute.
And you realize how thin the line is between love and hate
It doesnt hurt to bad till you realize it hurts you way more than it hurts them..
or till you realize HOW LONG A person wanted something before they actually saID IT...
OR WHEN TEARS DON'T MEAN anything . ..
YESTERDAY was the most draining horribe day i've ever had.. minus the facebook party on sasha's page other than that.. W.e
the hardest thing from this pointto do is move on.. cuz that a year and some shit..wasted for it to all end up one way. JUST leaving me wishing that noone WAS RIGHT.
-- i dont give a shit if im going hard.. or over emotioal.. I
'll be done with my bullsit in about a week.
If your a FRIEND. gimme time && if you cant handle it DIP
I dont think love is something i even know how to do at this point.
well.. moving onn.
but when yu love someone , you just dont treat them bad....
oh how i feel so sad , now that i wanna leave
* GET THE FUCK OUTTAA HEREE WITH THAT SHIT.
--trinuhh.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
to believe or not to believe. --segment on religion. part oneee.
last night, i decided to go to church the next morning ... [ go jesus.] this morning within ten of minutes of the service, i left. not because i was tired , or hungry or BORED. i was UNCOMFORTABLE.. and confused..
Christianity ONLY....
r aised many questions.
why do people praise and believe in something they dont understand? 'Is it faith? That isn't too fair. Everyone wasn't born with the concept of faith... some people aren't fortunate enough to be that optimistic. Faith as well as hate is TAUGHT. &&i f this belief is solely based on FAITH THEN WHY ARE OTHER RELIGIONS LOOK AT AS WEIRD OR or evil. when chritianty can be seen the same way....
-- buddhism -[ rooted rom hinduim] is based on this prince .. who was "enlightened " and taught a path to nirvana. This religion is so similar to christianity, but because the names are changed is isn't the saME
FOR BUDDHISM/CHRIsTIANITY
god - buddha
heaven - nirvana
doing right by others as done onto you - the concept of karma
scriptures - eight fold path
only differences are big ones.. re-incarnation and dying.
the Christian Church is supposed to be accepting but why is being gay or bi sexual still not accepted. People dont ask to be BORN gay so why are the put in ANY level of exile for it. WHY should they be asha,ed if they even remotely accept themselves and their orientation..
-- in retrospect... why are their gay preists it goes against the bible.?
What i was taught growing up was that god would punish a person if they lied, god would strike the un-righteous down. etc.
but where is this striking down now.. ? in other countries where people are being mutilated, starved and sacrificed.
ALOT OF it all JUST DOESNT MAKE SENSE TO ME.
I beleive a religionshould fit you. a person should not HAVE to fit a religion.
I also wonder what the misconception is..
what if GOD i this popping person....
THis cool dude who's more understadning than we think. WHY is everything revolving around things not god oriented eternal damnation. why is christianity so scary..?
WHY are there so many denominations
For one i cannot iunderstand catholisicm
why is ANYONE praying to a statue of a saint to get to god .. when the bible says he died on a cross so we wouldnt have to do that.
-- how does anyone know that when they pray someone is actually there lstening..
i dont.
but it's all based on faith i'm assuming. it's just hard really hard when you cant see hear or feel anything but fear.
and its so hard to believe a religion when it contradicts it self constantly.
The sam epeople who are the QUICKEST to scream out things like
"well!"
and "praise jesus"
are the same ones who talk about what a lady wore last sunday....
walking out of the s bathrooom at chuch this morning i heard a middle aged woman say something bout a woman whohasnt her bill in two moths. i wondered why this conversation was going on in church. but i just kept on in my own business....
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in the SAME light. i dont reallyunderstand how atheists do it...
how a person can not believe in anything. and yet till have morals... when religion supposedly has teaches these things. Guess that goes to show yu.. but personallly believing in nothing is quite depessing. to think that once yu die. you die. and thats it ,.. no re-incarnation, no hell or heaven.. no "limboo" its a pretty heavy burden to bear.
IDK WHAT to believe. i Just know that there IS something out there.but i dont know what it is...
Christianity ONLY....
r aised many questions.
why do people praise and believe in something they dont understand? 'Is it faith? That isn't too fair. Everyone wasn't born with the concept of faith... some people aren't fortunate enough to be that optimistic. Faith as well as hate is TAUGHT. &&i f this belief is solely based on FAITH THEN WHY ARE OTHER RELIGIONS LOOK AT AS WEIRD OR or evil. when chritianty can be seen the same way....
-- buddhism -[ rooted rom hinduim] is based on this prince .. who was "enlightened " and taught a path to nirvana. This religion is so similar to christianity, but because the names are changed is isn't the saME
FOR BUDDHISM/CHRIsTIANITY
god - buddha
heaven - nirvana
doing right by others as done onto you - the concept of karma
scriptures - eight fold path
only differences are big ones.. re-incarnation and dying.
the Christian Church is supposed to be accepting but why is being gay or bi sexual still not accepted. People dont ask to be BORN gay so why are the put in ANY level of exile for it. WHY should they be asha,ed if they even remotely accept themselves and their orientation..
-- in retrospect... why are their gay preists it goes against the bible.?
What i was taught growing up was that god would punish a person if they lied, god would strike the un-righteous down. etc.
but where is this striking down now.. ? in other countries where people are being mutilated, starved and sacrificed.
ALOT OF it all JUST DOESNT MAKE SENSE TO ME.
I beleive a religionshould fit you. a person should not HAVE to fit a religion.
I also wonder what the misconception is..
what if GOD i this popping person....
THis cool dude who's more understadning than we think. WHY is everything revolving around things not god oriented eternal damnation. why is christianity so scary..?
WHY are there so many denominations
For one i cannot iunderstand catholisicm
why is ANYONE praying to a statue of a saint to get to god .. when the bible says he died on a cross so we wouldnt have to do that.
-- how does anyone know that when they pray someone is actually there lstening..
i dont.
but it's all based on faith i'm assuming. it's just hard really hard when you cant see hear or feel anything but fear.
and its so hard to believe a religion when it contradicts it self constantly.
The sam epeople who are the QUICKEST to scream out things like
"well!"
and "praise jesus"
are the same ones who talk about what a lady wore last sunday....
walking out of the s bathrooom at chuch this morning i heard a middle aged woman say something bout a woman whohasnt her bill in two moths. i wondered why this conversation was going on in church. but i just kept on in my own business....
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
in the SAME light. i dont reallyunderstand how atheists do it...
how a person can not believe in anything. and yet till have morals... when religion supposedly has teaches these things. Guess that goes to show yu.. but personallly believing in nothing is quite depessing. to think that once yu die. you die. and thats it ,.. no re-incarnation, no hell or heaven.. no "limboo" its a pretty heavy burden to bear.
IDK WHAT to believe. i Just know that there IS something out there.but i dont know what it is...
Saturday, August 22, 2009
temporary state. [ no fears.]
Going back to the [FIVE letter word that starts with a P] blog, written a little after the middle of june.
WHAT IS IT..
that makes a boy go to the ends of the earth to get some...
What kind of asshole does that all in the attempt of some "hay - hay Va-JAY-Jay"
-.-
-- on a serious note;
YESTERDAY @ [military time]
cookiemoneyf (22:37:38): Lol honestly I wud admit dat I loved ur [] nd ur pussy but otha wise nah buddy
cookiemoneyf (22:37:54): I aint giv a fck abt u da very nxt hour
coookiemoneyf (22:38:00): Guess it wasn't love lol
a few months ago...
cookiemoneyf (20:41:39): buuuuuuuuuuuuuutttttttttt
catrini72192 (20:57:42) but what?
cookiemoneyf (20:41:39): i luv u more =D
guess it wasn't love ...
WELL, SINCE IT WASN'TTTTT......
-"what was good "with ALL the kissing in public..
- the 2 and a half back AND front letter. CONVENIENTLY right next to my copy machine.
- what was with the "don't talk to yur ex-boyfriend anymore because he's just using yu,when yu were doing the exact same thing?
-&& with the lemme be in a video by some boys crib and act like I wasn't living inside this girls pussy with my tongue hanging out...
- OH AND WHAT ABOUT THE; "here is my jersey yu can sleep in it at night.. "but couldn't inderstand why i gave it back.
I would just like to know.
Why make me go through bullshit.. when all I WAS .. was a"fuck up that gave good head?"( his words not mine.]
tears ALMOST came.. but...
your not even worth it.
--hearing i was a smut wasnt enough to STOP you from bieng hungry now was it?'
A SMALL DICK AINT SHIT "hooked on"
I deserve an oscar;; for all the acting i DID....
KIND of makes you a jerk with no life.. who went through an EXTENSIVE mass of violation on his aim status. EVEN THOUGH I WAS BLOCKED.
Yet, YOU didn't care if i SAW it.. as LONG as someone else did....
"stupidity is ALWAYS a temporary state.. IGNORANCE is never bliss. "
written by yours TRULY.
-- TRiNUH.
WHAT IS IT..
that makes a boy go to the ends of the earth to get some...
What kind of asshole does that all in the attempt of some "hay - hay Va-JAY-Jay"
-.-
-- on a serious note;
YESTERDAY @ [military time]
cookiemoneyf (22:37:38): Lol honestly I wud admit dat I loved ur [] nd ur pussy but otha wise nah buddy
cookiemoneyf (22:37:54): I aint giv a fck abt u da very nxt hour
coookiemoneyf (22:38:00): Guess it wasn't love lol
a few months ago...
cookiemoneyf (20:41:39): buuuuuuuuuuuuuutttttttttt
catrini72192 (20:57:42) but what?
cookiemoneyf (20:41:39): i luv u more =D
guess it wasn't love ...
WELL, SINCE IT WASN'TTTTT......
-"what was good "with ALL the kissing in public..
- the 2 and a half back AND front letter. CONVENIENTLY right next to my copy machine.
- what was with the "don't talk to yur ex-boyfriend anymore because he's just using yu,when yu were doing the exact same thing?
-&& with the lemme be in a video by some boys crib and act like I wasn't living inside this girls pussy with my tongue hanging out...
- OH AND WHAT ABOUT THE; "here is my jersey yu can sleep in it at night.. "but couldn't inderstand why i gave it back.
I would just like to know.
Why make me go through bullshit.. when all I WAS .. was a"fuck up that gave good head?"( his words not mine.]
tears ALMOST came.. but...
your not even worth it.
--hearing i was a smut wasnt enough to STOP you from bieng hungry now was it?'
A SMALL DICK AINT SHIT "hooked on"
I deserve an oscar;; for all the acting i DID....
KIND of makes you a jerk with no life.. who went through an EXTENSIVE mass of violation on his aim status. EVEN THOUGH I WAS BLOCKED.
Yet, YOU didn't care if i SAW it.. as LONG as someone else did....
"stupidity is ALWAYS a temporary state.. IGNORANCE is never bliss. "
written by yours TRULY.
-- TRiNUH.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Grateful
I don't even know if that's how you spell it. , but idc.
im gonna try a new thing.. just appreciating what i have.
i dont have a bunch of friends but inknow i gt rid of th fake ones. I;m not filthy rich.. but i dont shop at bobbys. im not married o shiloh labeouff but i have a boyfriend that makes me smile.. so lalalalalalalalalaaaaaaa.
lets all smile for what we have...
and say fuck the haters.
=]
and dont worry shloh.. even though i refuse to spell your name properly... i'm coming to bag... SOON.'
=P
song - the fear- lily allen .
im gonna try a new thing.. just appreciating what i have.
i dont have a bunch of friends but inknow i gt rid of th fake ones. I;m not filthy rich.. but i dont shop at bobbys. im not married o shiloh labeouff but i have a boyfriend that makes me smile.. so lalalalalalalalalaaaaaaa.
lets all smile for what we have...
and say fuck the haters.
=]
and dont worry shloh.. even though i refuse to spell your name properly... i'm coming to bag... SOON.'
=P
song - the fear- lily allen .
Friday, August 14, 2009
Days like these.. [ wishlist part TWO. ]
days like these used to be few, far and in between but i notice there getting closer and closer and closer.
days like these always make me re-think how much better life coudl have ben in atlanta..
days lie theserealy make me reconsider alot.. and rethink every thing that was said..
i really wish i left.
i really wish that instead of this nigga feeling attackd all the time he took what i said and blgged about into account and ActUALLY try to change something instead of blaming everything on me...
I wish i didnt have to feel so sad all the time.
I wish other people i DON'T talk to anymore stopped thinking i cared about there life.....
I wish I ate regular meals everyday like a normal person.
i WIsH i didnt hate everyone.
I wish people stopped bieng angry at the fact that I'm always d sad...
I wish i had REAL parents..
I wish i was RICH.
and the list goes on.
WHAT a depressing day..
its so beautiful outside though...
=/
days like these always make me re-think how much better life coudl have ben in atlanta..
days lie theserealy make me reconsider alot.. and rethink every thing that was said..
i really wish i left.
i really wish that instead of this nigga feeling attackd all the time he took what i said and blgged about into account and ActUALLY try to change something instead of blaming everything on me...
I wish i didnt have to feel so sad all the time.
I wish other people i DON'T talk to anymore stopped thinking i cared about there life.....
I wish I ate regular meals everyday like a normal person.
i WIsH i didnt hate everyone.
I wish people stopped bieng angry at the fact that I'm always d sad...
I wish i had REAL parents..
I wish i was RICH.
and the list goes on.
WHAT a depressing day..
its so beautiful outside though...
=/
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
PLASTIC
I have witnessed the most fakeness of fake in my entire life.
I Am HURT.
I Am Angry.
I Am DISGUSTED.
SMFH.
you are plasticcc
i hope someone lights you on fire
I Am HURT.
I Am Angry.
I Am DISGUSTED.
SMFH.
you are plasticcc
i hope someone lights you on fire
Friday, July 31, 2009
today.-- my wishlist.
today.well i don't lnow about today seeing as it's 1:00 in the morning.
but yesterday had its good points.
-i got to see the boy i love
-chilled with his fambam for a little.
-went by tiana and carlton
but as usual theres something-- missing.
and i dont know what. i feel that in every aspect of my life its.. messed up and it bothers me.
i kind of wish my boyfriends parents saw me for how i felt about HIM rather than judge me by my apperance. OR by what i don't have, OR what i can or cannot provide in the future.. ( that shouldn't even be the focus because its highschool. ) or how book smart i APPEAR.. i wish they saw my boyfriend as someone who could think for himself, rather than someone who's brainwashed. i wish that they treated him like he was seventeen and not seven. i wish they respected opinionated people, and saw it as intelleigence ...instead of preferring conformit.
i wish i didnt have to move away. i wish i didn't have drama in school. i wish that people who need a life would stop talking about me in others places except my face.
i wish that people who claimed to be my friends would stand up for me instead of staying quiet.
i wish i could read minds.
i wish that hypocritical people WOULD STOP calling other people hypocritical
i wish that immature people would stop calling other people immature.
i wish that i could be a fordmodel awihtoutshaving my head like amber rose.
and the list goes onn....
[ to be continued
but yesterday had its good points.
-i got to see the boy i love
-chilled with his fambam for a little.
-went by tiana and carlton
but as usual theres something-- missing.
and i dont know what. i feel that in every aspect of my life its.. messed up and it bothers me.
i kind of wish my boyfriends parents saw me for how i felt about HIM rather than judge me by my apperance. OR by what i don't have, OR what i can or cannot provide in the future.. ( that shouldn't even be the focus because its highschool. ) or how book smart i APPEAR.. i wish they saw my boyfriend as someone who could think for himself, rather than someone who's brainwashed. i wish that they treated him like he was seventeen and not seven. i wish they respected opinionated people, and saw it as intelleigence ...instead of preferring conformit.
i wish i didnt have to move away. i wish i didn't have drama in school. i wish that people who need a life would stop talking about me in others places except my face.
i wish that people who claimed to be my friends would stand up for me instead of staying quiet.
i wish i could read minds.
i wish that hypocritical people WOULD STOP calling other people hypocritical
i wish that immature people would stop calling other people immature.
i wish that i could be a fordmodel awihtoutshaving my head like amber rose.
and the list goes onn....
[ to be continued
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
rant. [ parents ]
I really cannot deal with this bullshit. living this bullshit life, with bullshit parents.
Just because Im se'vnenteen does not mean I should have to feel on my own.
Tell me the reson why I cannot live a regular life, have regular money like regular people this really is bullshit.
No ONE should complain about my work ethic , my grades, my attitude, NONE of it.. when they do not show an example at all of ANYTHING. at ALL.
nothing that i can imitate.
and JUST because noone is selling drugs doesn't mean that i shouldn't complain.
i am SICK and tired...of bieng sick and tired..
i don't need anything thats HALFWAY
I do not NEED a HALF -WAY parent.
It's all or nothing.
and no one really understands how lonely it is.
nobody.
I'm so tired of this bullshit.
and i want out.
Just because Im se'vnenteen does not mean I should have to feel on my own.
Tell me the reson why I cannot live a regular life, have regular money like regular people this really is bullshit.
No ONE should complain about my work ethic , my grades, my attitude, NONE of it.. when they do not show an example at all of ANYTHING. at ALL.
nothing that i can imitate.
and JUST because noone is selling drugs doesn't mean that i shouldn't complain.
i am SICK and tired...of bieng sick and tired..
i don't need anything thats HALFWAY
I do not NEED a HALF -WAY parent.
It's all or nothing.
and no one really understands how lonely it is.
nobody.
I'm so tired of this bullshit.
and i want out.
Monday, July 20, 2009
not existing is easy.
It's about 9:39 in th e mornng it has occured to me that not many people care about me..
that hurts like a bitch..
my birthday is tommorow and iI'm noticing that this has beeen a yet again UNHAPPY year. I'm not trying to sound ungrateful o r anything bu life is really sucking right now.
Ï've never been god enough for anything or anyone.. and realizing that doesn't make anything seem like its going to get get better .. it just makes me feel like a big pile of shit.
thats all.
i thought i was moving..
but im b not even smart enough for that to take place...
smh
i really hate lifee.
that hurts like a bitch..
my birthday is tommorow and iI'm noticing that this has beeen a yet again UNHAPPY year. I'm not trying to sound ungrateful o r anything bu life is really sucking right now.
Ï've never been god enough for anything or anyone.. and realizing that doesn't make anything seem like its going to get get better .. it just makes me feel like a big pile of shit.
thats all.
i thought i was moving..
but im b not even smart enough for that to take place...
smh
i really hate lifee.
Saturday, July 11, 2009
you cant get mad at the hypeman
Okay so, one o'çlock in the morning
i get off the phone with the most amazing person...
and we talked about a whole shit load of shit.
ANAlYZATION of the end of my banging buisness..
so after that i really listened some more and thought.
and thought and thought and i said .. HOLYYY -ISHH. she's so right.
and then she hits me with another one.
"trina you cant be mad at a hype man... someone started it but the hype man has to go harder than everyone else."
and YOU KNOW how far i go with analogies. i'm on tour and everyoe is getting bored. my WONDERFUL alter egoo-- comes with an act that brings the audience to a silencee.. the next artist ha s to follow my act with something JUST as good. something to counter my performance.. the hypeman picks a side... and doess what it does best..
SMELL THE HYPE.
FEEL THE HYPE.
BE THe hYPEMAn.
taking the advice of one of the wisest people i know..'
im gonna continue bieng me.. and just laugh at the hypeman and.. i mean it goes real far. i'm not mad at it..do what you have to do.. i mean just LOOK at tony yayo. hes AMAZING.
-.-
i mean when you compare him to jay z.
well theres no comparison.
but kudos.
hypemann.
=]
personal messagee.
please do not assume and then run with yur assumptions.. ask.
if you dnt wanna ask.. then stfu.
-trinuhh
i get off the phone with the most amazing person...
and we talked about a whole shit load of shit.
ANAlYZATION of the end of my banging buisness..
so after that i really listened some more and thought.
and thought and thought and i said .. HOLYYY -ISHH. she's so right.
and then she hits me with another one.
"trina you cant be mad at a hype man... someone started it but the hype man has to go harder than everyone else."
and YOU KNOW how far i go with analogies. i'm on tour and everyoe is getting bored. my WONDERFUL alter egoo-- comes with an act that brings the audience to a silencee.. the next artist ha s to follow my act with something JUST as good. something to counter my performance.. the hypeman picks a side... and doess what it does best..
SMELL THE HYPE.
FEEL THE HYPE.
BE THe hYPEMAn.
taking the advice of one of the wisest people i know..'
im gonna continue bieng me.. and just laugh at the hypeman and.. i mean it goes real far. i'm not mad at it..do what you have to do.. i mean just LOOK at tony yayo. hes AMAZING.
-.-
i mean when you compare him to jay z.
well theres no comparison.
but kudos.
hypemann.
=]
personal messagee.
please do not assume and then run with yur assumptions.. ask.
if you dnt wanna ask.. then stfu.
-trinuhh
Monday, July 6, 2009
9 letters
the worst thing a person can do is care about someone that cares about nothing but themselves.
the second worst thing you can do is fear anything but god.
i fear nothing... but god. ever since today
thats the best way to be..
cuz' vindication is key...
who really wants to be stuck living in world bieng at a job or learning at school bieng scared of what self absorbed two-faced idiots are going to say about you. the worst my mistake i made was bieng luke warm,..
noone likes a shower thats hot and cold..
thats how you get sick..
i was sick..
i found my cure
not giving a shit..
--NOT saying i dont give a shit and really give a shit.
ACTUALLY NOT GIVING A SHIT.
the second worst thing you can do is fear anything but god.
i fear nothing... but god. ever since today
thats the best way to be..
cuz' vindication is key...
who really wants to be stuck living in world bieng at a job or learning at school bieng scared of what self absorbed two-faced idiots are going to say about you. the worst my mistake i made was bieng luke warm,..
noone likes a shower thats hot and cold..
thats how you get sick..
i was sick..
i found my cure
not giving a shit..
--NOT saying i dont give a shit and really give a shit.
ACTUALLY NOT GIVING A SHIT.
--personal message.
get over it. get over yourself. if you never cared, or never will or never did.. please stop bieng a two year old damien child and talking shit like a girl about SOMEONE YOU DONT CARE ABOUT.
girls talk shit.
not boys.
there not supposed to.
believe everything or nothing you want, just dont come to me about it. i honestly dont care . i dont care about you anymore either... funny thing is, i've finally.. learned not to chase after assholes trying to make them care. if you were born a dipshit thats how you will live yourlife .. being a dipshit. a BIPOLAR dipshit.
I would honestly prefer if you just left me and whatever's left of my pretty little life alone.. you know ..? and live your happy gossiip filled life.
stop taking the time out to fic your aim and myspace statuses to make jokes... i'm done caring about you.. so maybe you should join the movement.
--trinuhh
Sunday, July 5, 2009
current location.. Atlanta, GA
To be honest, I'm pretty much loving it here.
As MUCH as I miss a person or two..I would love to stay here and be here.
my BEsT friend who I grew up with the CLOSEST thing to blood to me lives here...and it would be great if all i was, a drive away.
I wanna move..
Move away from new york.
It's overrated... and the fake-ass people and the people who disguse there curiosity and nosi-ness as caring about me. i mean no place is problem-free. And I DO have a habit of trying to run away from my problems.. but i've madr a dscision
i'm going to keep running.'
so i dont have to deal.
i shouldnt have too.
i can be pretty atlhetic.
-- kinda HAD to write today almost has been three days or so.
writing and running.
its the best
kay gonna go watch a movie
wth my husband shiloh buff.
As MUCH as I miss a person or two..I would love to stay here and be here.
my BEsT friend who I grew up with the CLOSEST thing to blood to me lives here...and it would be great if all i was, a drive away.
I wanna move..
Move away from new york.
It's overrated... and the fake-ass people and the people who disguse there curiosity and nosi-ness as caring about me. i mean no place is problem-free. And I DO have a habit of trying to run away from my problems.. but i've madr a dscision
i'm going to keep running.'
so i dont have to deal.
i shouldnt have too.
i can be pretty atlhetic.
-- kinda HAD to write today almost has been three days or so.
writing and running.
its the best
kay gonna go watch a movie
wth my husband shiloh buff.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
dry eyes...
really hurt.
&& my key board is getting fucked up with all of the water thats been poured on it.
with that said his is gonna be the last blog relating to this person and this topic.
because tomorrow is july 1st.
a new month .
and i am done with this topic and this person.
eventually I'll remember ever moment and try to cry but the tears just won't come.. and that will be the happiest day of my life.
--trinuhh.
&& my key board is getting fucked up with all of the water thats been poured on it.
with that said his is gonna be the last blog relating to this person and this topic.
because tomorrow is july 1st.
a new month .
and i am done with this topic and this person.
eventually I'll remember ever moment and try to cry but the tears just won't come.. and that will be the happiest day of my life.
--trinuhh.
Monday, June 29, 2009
FUCkkKKK [ rant. out the ass.]
i hate him
i hate him
i hate him
i hate him
i hate him
i hate him
i hate him
i fucking hate him
i fucking hate him
i hate him so much
so
so
so
so
so
so
much.
im gonna die of a heart attack
i hate him
i hate him
i hate him
i hate him
i hate him
i hate him
i fucking hate him
i fucking hate him
i hate him so much
so
so
so
so
so
so
much.
im gonna die of a heart attack
Saturday, June 27, 2009
meow....
Parents like to tell you, be careful who you have sex with.. and this and that--
and use protection..
and the most not important thing that stuck out to me was..
"a BOY will do and say anything to have sex with yu"
I always believed it, but figured that I would know when i was bieng used... and that I'd have an indication, but never thought it was really something to worry about.. untill...
Today I realized that i am probably one of the stupidest
-- NO the MOST stupid girl in the world to think a boy like that could ever really love me.
waas i not good enough..?
why give me one set of 8 letters...
you know.?
if it meant another set of 8 letters
and use protection..
and the most not important thing that stuck out to me was..
"a BOY will do and say anything to have sex with yu"
I always believed it, but figured that I would know when i was bieng used... and that I'd have an indication, but never thought it was really something to worry about.. untill...
Today I realized that i am probably one of the stupidest
-- NO the MOST stupid girl in the world to think a boy like that could ever really love me.
waas i not good enough..?
why give me one set of 8 letters...
you know.?
if it meant another set of 8 letters
is that how much i really didnt matter?
Personal message:
To go behind my back and laugh about me, when your supposed to care. i dont know the definition of love or to be IN love, but i damn well know that it was NOT that shit... The only thing you knew how to do was lie to me. To say you don't know how to treat people is an understatement.. REALLY.
I'm not for a second gonna sit here and play the victim...
cuz' at the end of the day it was pretty stupid for me to trust ANYONE..
i really did kind of ask for this shit, so im blaming myself..
but niggahs really WILL do A N Y T H I N G for some pussy.
even tell lies..
-- that's all i really WAS.
some pussy.
at least i know.
--trinuhhh
Friday, June 26, 2009
cuz' i felt nothing..
For the first time I actually want NOTHING.
and this is not because I am satisfied with life, this is because I'm settling for not being able to have everything I WANT.
and then we have the quote..
"you can't have your cake and eat it too"
what's the point of me going out of my way to bake a damn cake if i cant even have a bite..
personal rant-
this summer, i kind of just wanted to not have to worry about anyone or anything, because .. well, its the summer. LAST summer someone.... pulled something similar and now I'm realizing that maybe it was bullshit back then, I'm seeing that for me... it's NOT bullshit. I don't want to be lonely but I'd like to be alone. I'd like to have the option to not be so engrossed in love and the drama just because I don't need all of it. Love can make a person feel great, but it can also make you feel just as bad and powerless. I'd prefer if I had the upper hand here.... Not to say that I still don't feel how i feel for anyone, but if its REAL then it'll stay there.. if its not then I'll know that i did the right thing. but i am not even seventeen yet. WHY in hell do i need to waste tears on something that isn't guaranteed. looking at current times.. seeing as how guys have the freedom.. I'm thinking. I SHOULD be able to have that freedom. No strings.. no ropes no chains. I should be able to do whatever, even if that means DOING nothing. and i do think that its worth it.. to put love on a halt because if I'M not thinking about me and my happiness who really is?
and this is not because I am satisfied with life, this is because I'm settling for not being able to have everything I WANT.
and then we have the quote..
"you can't have your cake and eat it too"
what's the point of me going out of my way to bake a damn cake if i cant even have a bite..
personal rant-
this summer, i kind of just wanted to not have to worry about anyone or anything, because .. well, its the summer. LAST summer someone.... pulled something similar and now I'm realizing that maybe it was bullshit back then, I'm seeing that for me... it's NOT bullshit. I don't want to be lonely but I'd like to be alone. I'd like to have the option to not be so engrossed in love and the drama just because I don't need all of it. Love can make a person feel great, but it can also make you feel just as bad and powerless. I'd prefer if I had the upper hand here.... Not to say that I still don't feel how i feel for anyone, but if its REAL then it'll stay there.. if its not then I'll know that i did the right thing. but i am not even seventeen yet. WHY in hell do i need to waste tears on something that isn't guaranteed. looking at current times.. seeing as how guys have the freedom.. I'm thinking. I SHOULD be able to have that freedom. No strings.. no ropes no chains. I should be able to do whatever, even if that means DOING nothing. and i do think that its worth it.. to put love on a halt because if I'M not thinking about me and my happiness who really is?
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Taking this to the HEAD.
I'm always really scared to be happy. I've been scared to love and be loved in return but I'm noticing that maybe I dont have to be scared. Because no matter what, the pain and hurt will come. It was meant to come.
I do think that after a while the hurt stops, the pain comes to an end... and then you become only prone to happiness. Right now, at this moment I love the one of the greatest people to have ever lived, and as far as I KNOW this person loves me back. He shows me that.
Its a beautiful feeling. and AS HORRIBLE and as LOW as i can feel. He makes me feel on top of the world. =]
--trinuhh
I do think that after a while the hurt stops, the pain comes to an end... and then you become only prone to happiness. Right now, at this moment I love the one of the greatest people to have ever lived, and as far as I KNOW this person loves me back. He shows me that.
Its a beautiful feeling. and AS HORRIBLE and as LOW as i can feel. He makes me feel on top of the world. =]
--trinuhh
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
No, No Es Amor...
It is 2 ; 02 in the damn morning and i just finished waking up out of nowhere to see I received a text from someone who needed to talk.
and this was at almost 12:00
My gayest wish was to be this person's night in shining armor, The person that was always there for them no matter what, but because I got up two hours to late they weren't ready to talk anymore and it just isnt fair! It is not fair that I have crazy love for a selective robot & I KNOW life isnt fair but I ALWAYS wanted to be there for this person and its so hard when its like an olympics race JUST trying to get this person's attention outside of a FUCKING EACH OTHEER level. I have to compete for his friendship.. ShakinMahHead.
.
I feel like there are so many underlined stories and emotions and details to this person FARTHER than what I already know, and itá bieng selfish but i want to know them ALL. I feel that I never ever will and that shit hurts so bad cuz i wanna know him inside and out. Not on a marraige level, cuz ew... and I dont think yu shuld have to be married to a person to share an emotional connect in confidence. Everything doesnt have to be about commitment on that level. I think its so corny just to say to someone, i JUST wanna KNOW yu. but i just wanna know this guy man...and just KNOW him, not to hurt him but to just BE there. OUTSIDE OF THE ROMANTICISM THAT MAKES THINGS COMPLICATED AND IMPOSSIBLE..
Its not like he shows that he cares, he says he does and then actions show different. and Í'm feeling like I'm walking on landmines with everything i do. and on MY mission to be happy i could pssibly be hurting him on the way but NOTHING is on purpose. bur Im so sick and tired of bieng hurt because of everyone ...
love for a person is wild.
and this was at almost 12:00
My gayest wish was to be this person's night in shining armor, The person that was always there for them no matter what, but because I got up two hours to late they weren't ready to talk anymore and it just isnt fair! It is not fair that I have crazy love for a selective robot & I KNOW life isnt fair but I ALWAYS wanted to be there for this person and its so hard when its like an olympics race JUST trying to get this person's attention outside of a FUCKING EACH OTHEER level. I have to compete for his friendship.. ShakinMahHead.
.
I feel like there are so many underlined stories and emotions and details to this person FARTHER than what I already know, and itá bieng selfish but i want to know them ALL. I feel that I never ever will and that shit hurts so bad cuz i wanna know him inside and out. Not on a marraige level, cuz ew... and I dont think yu shuld have to be married to a person to share an emotional connect in confidence. Everything doesnt have to be about commitment on that level. I think its so corny just to say to someone, i JUST wanna KNOW yu. but i just wanna know this guy man...and just KNOW him, not to hurt him but to just BE there. OUTSIDE OF THE ROMANTICISM THAT MAKES THINGS COMPLICATED AND IMPOSSIBLE..
Its not like he shows that he cares, he says he does and then actions show different. and Í'm feeling like I'm walking on landmines with everything i do. and on MY mission to be happy i could pssibly be hurting him on the way but NOTHING is on purpose. bur Im so sick and tired of bieng hurt because of everyone ...
love for a person is wild.
Monday, June 15, 2009
poetry::.ocean of me
It would be a never ending cycle with you.
it would be just yur smashing AND dashing. "
laying down
crashing
on the sands of my sorrows
as we lay.
the depressed fish
gets to swim up stream
and plays with the strong smooth musclee
and plays around with THAT wetness
she is RICH.
and offers that sweet pearl
for a five minute smileee
and this fish is released
and the fish crys on down dripping onto that smooth strong muscle.
and everyone is covered in tears.
happy tears
sad tears...
cuz this cycle comes to a scary start-finish..
when mr.muscle man cant wipe those tears.
of sadness and regret
cuz fishing aint always in season in the ocean OF me..
this muscle carrier only comes in
hungry
smashes and dashes
lays down and crashes
all other ports are closed..
and the grains of sand
cant hold up pretty little beach house
when mr.man breaks it down at the docks..
under the boardwalk.
--trinuhh
it would be just yur smashing AND dashing. "
laying down
crashing
on the sands of my sorrows
as we lay.
the depressed fish
gets to swim up stream
and plays with the strong smooth musclee
and plays around with THAT wetness
she is RICH.
and offers that sweet pearl
for a five minute smileee
and this fish is released
and the fish crys on down dripping onto that smooth strong muscle.
and everyone is covered in tears.
happy tears
sad tears...
cuz this cycle comes to a scary start-finish..
when mr.muscle man cant wipe those tears.
of sadness and regret
cuz fishing aint always in season in the ocean OF me..
this muscle carrier only comes in
hungry
smashes and dashes
lays down and crashes
all other ports are closed..
and the grains of sand
cant hold up pretty little beach house
when mr.man breaks it down at the docks..
under the boardwalk.
--trinuhh
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
love[rant]
So, my mom right ...and her boyfriend, they like PISS me off.
Break up, goo back together, break up and hate each other for three days and then once again, go back together. but then if I do the SAME SHIT with y boyfriend its a fucking problem, i have to have the peachiest, keenest [ made up a word] relationships know to teenage love. WHY the hell is it okay for her to live a a dysfunctional ass carnival ride, but i cant even come near the front entrance.
IS THIS what love is, a carnival, a BIG show.
OH boy, i hope not cuz i was born to be an entertainer.
A fucking park a where the only thing that's in is a seesaw.
aw fucking adults piss me off.
-trinuhh.
Break up, goo back together, break up and hate each other for three days and then once again, go back together. but then if I do the SAME SHIT with y boyfriend its a fucking problem, i have to have the peachiest, keenest [ made up a word] relationships know to teenage love. WHY the hell is it okay for her to live a a dysfunctional ass carnival ride, but i cant even come near the front entrance.
IS THIS what love is, a carnival, a BIG show.
OH boy, i hope not cuz i was born to be an entertainer.
A fucking park a where the only thing that's in is a seesaw.
aw fucking adults piss me off.
-trinuhh.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
blank --then BOOM!
First blog and i cant even think of anything to write, so
- wait my mother just pissed me off okay here we go.
Mothers, whats the REAL definition of it. the mothers on the sitcom and tv shows are these nurting, caring, spicy women who do what they have to do for thier childern. Single mothers, depicted in th media are often shown as hardworking, determined, and very involved... Etc.
WHY OH WHY, was iI not lucky ehough to be born with a mother like this. Why is it that this single mother of mine, has forced me unknowingly to be my own mother.. and to learn to be alone.?
I have a LOT of bad qualities but my WORST one.. is my selfishness, and Lo and behold who posseses this characteristic most strongly, the BIG mama dukes. Not too ironic is it.? As a child i went through a really messy divorce and as a parent yu'd think that she'd be stronger.. and teach ME to be strong..of COURSE not just like me shes weak and doesnt know what to do under pressure. I wish i was stronger, and i wont blame myself because.... i really dont think its my fault. Its how a persons raised. Every flaw yu have, every descisions we make on who were with who were fucking , what emotional tantrums we go through, the sucky jobs we have, grades.. promiscuity all of this is on the mother.
Strippers and prostitues, all of this is NOT your fault. Your mother made yu work for your money on a pole, yes the dear old lady PUSHED yu into spreading em wide for 40 dollars a fuck. Not you, your mother. Mom, you shoould be ashamed. VERY ashamed.
- wait my mother just pissed me off okay here we go.
Mothers, whats the REAL definition of it. the mothers on the sitcom and tv shows are these nurting, caring, spicy women who do what they have to do for thier childern. Single mothers, depicted in th media are often shown as hardworking, determined, and very involved... Etc.
WHY OH WHY, was iI not lucky ehough to be born with a mother like this. Why is it that this single mother of mine, has forced me unknowingly to be my own mother.. and to learn to be alone.?
I have a LOT of bad qualities but my WORST one.. is my selfishness, and Lo and behold who posseses this characteristic most strongly, the BIG mama dukes. Not too ironic is it.? As a child i went through a really messy divorce and as a parent yu'd think that she'd be stronger.. and teach ME to be strong..of COURSE not just like me shes weak and doesnt know what to do under pressure. I wish i was stronger, and i wont blame myself because.... i really dont think its my fault. Its how a persons raised. Every flaw yu have, every descisions we make on who were with who were fucking , what emotional tantrums we go through, the sucky jobs we have, grades.. promiscuity all of this is on the mother.
Strippers and prostitues, all of this is NOT your fault. Your mother made yu work for your money on a pole, yes the dear old lady PUSHED yu into spreading em wide for 40 dollars a fuck. Not you, your mother. Mom, you shoould be ashamed. VERY ashamed.
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