It is 2 ; 02 in the damn morning and i just finished waking up out of nowhere to see I received a text from someone who needed to talk.
and this was at almost 12:00
My gayest wish was to be this person's night in shining armor, The person that was always there for them no matter what, but because I got up two hours to late they weren't ready to talk anymore and it just isnt fair! It is not fair that I have crazy love for a selective robot & I KNOW life isnt fair but I ALWAYS wanted to be there for this person and its so hard when its like an olympics race JUST trying to get this person's attention outside of a FUCKING EACH OTHEER level. I have to compete for his friendship.. ShakinMahHead.
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I feel like there are so many underlined stories and emotions and details to this person FARTHER than what I already know, and itá bieng selfish but i want to know them ALL. I feel that I never ever will and that shit hurts so bad cuz i wanna know him inside and out. Not on a marraige level, cuz ew... and I dont think yu shuld have to be married to a person to share an emotional connect in confidence. Everything doesnt have to be about commitment on that level. I think its so corny just to say to someone, i JUST wanna KNOW yu. but i just wanna know this guy man...and just KNOW him, not to hurt him but to just BE there. OUTSIDE OF THE ROMANTICISM THAT MAKES THINGS COMPLICATED AND IMPOSSIBLE..
Its not like he shows that he cares, he says he does and then actions show different. and Í'm feeling like I'm walking on landmines with everything i do. and on MY mission to be happy i could pssibly be hurting him on the way but NOTHING is on purpose. bur Im so sick and tired of bieng hurt because of everyone ...
love for a person is wild.
and this was at almost 12:00
My gayest wish was to be this person's night in shining armor, The person that was always there for them no matter what, but because I got up two hours to late they weren't ready to talk anymore and it just isnt fair! It is not fair that I have crazy love for a selective robot & I KNOW life isnt fair but I ALWAYS wanted to be there for this person and its so hard when its like an olympics race JUST trying to get this person's attention outside of a FUCKING EACH OTHEER level. I have to compete for his friendship.. ShakinMahHead.
.
I feel like there are so many underlined stories and emotions and details to this person FARTHER than what I already know, and itá bieng selfish but i want to know them ALL. I feel that I never ever will and that shit hurts so bad cuz i wanna know him inside and out. Not on a marraige level, cuz ew... and I dont think yu shuld have to be married to a person to share an emotional connect in confidence. Everything doesnt have to be about commitment on that level. I think its so corny just to say to someone, i JUST wanna KNOW yu. but i just wanna know this guy man...and just KNOW him, not to hurt him but to just BE there. OUTSIDE OF THE ROMANTICISM THAT MAKES THINGS COMPLICATED AND IMPOSSIBLE..
Its not like he shows that he cares, he says he does and then actions show different. and Í'm feeling like I'm walking on landmines with everything i do. and on MY mission to be happy i could pssibly be hurting him on the way but NOTHING is on purpose. bur Im so sick and tired of bieng hurt because of everyone ...
love for a person is wild.
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