this time were not giving up...lets make it last forever

life is such a crazy thing. you win a little and you lose a lot.

you give a lot and its all for no reason
cuz it all can dissapear withing half a minute.
And you realize how thin the line is between love and hate
It doesnt hurt to bad till you realize it hurts you way more than it hurts them..
or till you realize HOW LONG A person wanted something before they actually saID IT...
OR WHEN TEARS DON'T MEAN anything . ..


YESTERDAY was the most draining horribe day i've ever had.. minus the facebook party on sasha's page other than that.. W.e

the hardest thing from this pointto do is move on.. cuz that a year and some shit..wasted for it to all end up one way. JUST leaving me wishing that noone WAS RIGHT.


-- i dont give a shit if im going hard.. or over emotioal.. I
'll be done with my bullsit in about a week.
If your a FRIEND. gimme time && if you cant handle it DIP

I dont think love is something i even know how to do at this point.




well.. moving onn.


but when yu love someone , you just dont treat them bad....
oh how i feel so sad , now that i wanna leave



* GET THE FUCK OUTTAA HEREE WITH THAT SHIT.


--trinuhh.

to believe or not to believe. --segment on religion. part oneee.

last night, i decided to go to church the next morning ... [ go jesus.] this morning within ten of minutes of the service, i left. not because i was tired , or hungry or BORED. i was UNCOMFORTABLE.. and confused..

Christianity ONLY....
r aised many questions.
why do people praise and believe in something they dont understand? 'Is it faith? That isn't too fair. Everyone wasn't born with the concept of faith... some people aren't fortunate enough to be that optimistic. Faith as well as hate is TAUGHT. &&i f this belief is solely based on FAITH THEN WHY ARE OTHER RELIGIONS LOOK AT AS WEIRD OR or evil. when chritianty can be seen the same way....

-- buddhism -[ rooted rom hinduim] is based on this prince .. who was "enlightened " and taught a path to nirvana. This religion is so similar to christianity, but because the names are changed is isn't the saME

FOR BUDDHISM/CHRIsTIANITY
god - buddha
heaven - nirvana
doing right by others as done onto you - the concept of karma
scriptures - eight fold path

only differences are big ones.. re-incarnation and dying.



the Christian Church is supposed to be accepting but why is being gay or bi sexual still not accepted. People dont ask to be BORN gay so why are the put in ANY level of exile for it. WHY should they be asha,ed if they even remotely accept themselves and their orientation..
-- in retrospect... why are their gay preists it goes against the bible.?

What i was taught growing up was that god would punish a person if they lied, god would strike the un-righteous down. etc.
but where is this striking down now.. ? in other countries where people are being mutilated, starved and sacrificed.

ALOT OF it all JUST DOESNT MAKE SENSE TO ME.

I beleive a religionshould fit you. a person should not HAVE to fit a religion.

I also wonder what the misconception is..
what if GOD i this popping person....
THis cool dude who's more understadning than we think. WHY is everything revolving around things not god oriented eternal damnation. why is christianity so scary..?


WHY are there so many denominations

For one i cannot iunderstand catholisicm
why is ANYONE praying to a statue of a saint to get to god .. when the bible says he died on a cross so we wouldnt have to do that.

-- how does anyone know that when they pray someone is actually there lstening..
i dont.
but it's all based on faith i'm assuming. it's just hard really hard when you cant see hear or feel anything but fear.

and its so hard to believe a religion when it contradicts it self constantly.

The sam epeople who are the QUICKEST to scream out things like
"well!"
and "praise jesus"
are the same ones who talk about what a lady wore last sunday....

walking out of the s bathrooom at chuch this morning i heard a middle aged woman say something bout a woman whohasnt her bill in two moths. i wondered why this conversation was going on in church. but i just kept on in my own business....

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in the SAME light. i dont reallyunderstand how atheists do it...
how a person can not believe in anything. and yet till have morals... when religion supposedly has teaches these things. Guess that goes to show yu.. but personallly believing in nothing is quite depessing. to think that once yu die. you die. and thats it ,.. no re-incarnation, no hell or heaven.. no "limboo" its a pretty heavy burden to bear.

IDK WHAT to believe. i Just know that there IS something out there.but i dont know what it is...

temporary state. [ no fears.]

Going back to the [FIVE letter word that starts with a P] blog, written a little after the middle of june.

WHAT IS IT..
that makes a boy go to the ends of the earth to get some...

What kind of asshole does that all in the attempt of some "hay - hay Va-JAY-Jay"



-.-

-- on a serious note;
YESTERDAY @ [military time]

cookiemoneyf (22:37:38): Lol honestly I wud admit dat I loved ur [] nd ur pussy but otha wise nah buddy
cookiemoneyf (22:37:54): I aint giv a fck abt u da very nxt hour
coookiemoneyf (22:38:00): Guess it wasn't love lol

a few months ago...

cookiemoneyf (20:41:39): buuuuuuuuuuuuuutttttttttt
catrini72192 (20:57:42) but what?
cookiemoneyf (20:41:39): i luv u more =D


guess it wasn't love ...
WELL, SINCE IT WASN'TTTTT......


-"what was good "with ALL the kissing in public..
- the 2 and a half back AND front letter. CONVENIENTLY right next to my copy machine.
- what was with the "don't talk to yur ex-boyfriend anymore because he's just using yu,when yu were doing the exact same thing?
-&& with the lemme be in a video by some boys crib and act like I wasn't living inside this girls pussy with my tongue hanging out...


- OH AND WHAT ABOUT THE; "here is my jersey yu can sleep in it at night.. "but couldn't inderstand why i gave it back.



I would just like to know.

Why make me go through bullshit.. when all I WAS .. was a"fuck up that gave good head?"( his words not mine.]

tears ALMOST came.. but...
your not even worth it.

--hearing i was a smut wasnt enough to STOP you from bieng hungry now was it?'
A SMALL DICK AINT SHIT "hooked on"
I deserve an oscar;; for all the acting i DID....



KIND of makes you a jerk with no life.. who went through an EXTENSIVE mass of violation on his aim status. EVEN THOUGH I WAS BLOCKED.
Yet, YOU didn't care if i SAW it.. as LONG as someone else did....


"stupidity is ALWAYS a temporary state.. IGNORANCE is never bliss. "

written by yours TRULY.

-- TRiNUH.

Grateful

I don't even know if that's how you spell it. , but idc.
im gonna try a new thing.. just appreciating what i have.

i dont have a bunch of friends but inknow i gt rid of th fake ones. I;m not filthy rich.. but i dont shop at bobbys. im not married o shiloh labeouff but i have a boyfriend that makes me smile.. so lalalalalalalalalaaaaaaa.

lets all smile for what we have...
and say fuck the haters.
=]


and dont worry shloh.. even though i refuse to spell your name properly... i'm coming to bag... SOON.'
=P



song - the fear- lily allen .

Days like these.. [ wishlist part TWO. ]

days like these used to be few, far and in between but i notice there getting closer and closer and closer.
days like these always make me re-think how much better life coudl have ben in atlanta..
days lie theserealy make me reconsider alot.. and rethink every thing that was said..

i really wish i left.

i really wish that instead of this nigga feeling attackd all the time he took what i said and blgged about into account and ActUALLY try to change something instead of blaming everything on me...

I wish i didnt have to feel so sad all the time.

I wish other people i DON'T talk to anymore stopped thinking i cared about there life.....

I wish I ate regular meals everyday like a normal person.

i WIsH i didnt hate everyone.


I wish people stopped bieng angry at the fact that I'm always d sad...

I wish i had REAL parents..

I wish i was RICH.


and the list goes on.

WHAT a depressing day..
its so beautiful outside though...

=/

PLASTIC

I have witnessed the most fakeness of fake in my entire life.

I Am HURT.
I Am Angry.
I Am DISGUSTED.



SMFH.


you are plasticcc
i hope someone lights you on fire